Monday, November 26, 2007

流浪者之歌

1:30PM

眼皮一直跳,心繃繃不停。
待會兒要見老闆,已準備好接受震撼教育。

5:30PM

我回來了!一路嘆氣。

和老闆討論的前十分鐘我的淚水在眼眶中打轉(如果她不事先告訴我已經有人哭著離開,我想我不會這麼怯弱)。
互動過程也不甚順利,我沒有得到我想要的答案;每每問問題,老闆就說:“這是我的建議,你不做沒關係,就是低空飛過(LOW PASS)。“

嘿~我就是不想低空飛過才問你啊!?我只好偷偷把疑問記下來,回家自己再想一回。寫paper,尤其是人文科學的paper,太講究邏輯思惟了,光有證據是不夠的。

我內傷,需要花點時間恢復。
相信我自己能越挫越勇,屢敗屢勝!

(Mave:沒那麼慘,她說你可以低空飛過,至少你過了!)---> 哪門子的安慰?

ps:
剛剛去翻一下手冊,我的媽啊!八科平均必須要六十分才達標準表現:60分是HIGH PASS...我這次真的死定了...
在英國的評分制度是如此的:
above 70 Distinction Level;
60-69 Hight Pass Level;
50-59 Low Pass Level;
49 or lower Fail Level 。
之前聽前輩說,只要PASS就沒問題,就算有一科當掉,其他平均一下就好;我還想,怎樣都會Low Pass,就別太悲觀...哎~要求神拜佛了。

5 comments:

幸福微笑Eileen said...

Dear Nicole:
常常在我的部落格中看到你的留言,都覺得很溫暖,代表你常常在關心我,也讓我想到我們大學中相處的點點滴滴!很羨慕你可以追求自己的夢想到英國唸書,我走了跟你相反的路,走入家庭中,但是我也覺得很幸福,明年你五月回來時一定要找我喔!那時我已經準備要當媽媽了,我將會生出一個雙子寶寶喔!也許你也可以來得及看到我的寶寶!:)

ABOUT Ying-Hua Lu (Nicole) said...

高興高興大開心...
你開花結果了(這是什麼爛形容詞)
我身邊終於有一個要當媽媽的友人了!

poemstop said...

dear Nicole,

Don't worry... but you need to find other resources and help to help yourself. I think the professor really want you yourself to find the solution, not her solution. Do you get what I mean?
so, you really need to be prepared before going to her, to prove that you have done your work and pay your effort....
my suggestion!

ABOUT Ying-Hua Lu (Nicole) said...
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ABOUT Ying-Hua Lu (Nicole) said...

Dear poemstop,

Thanks for your suggestions!

However, this time is quite different; we discussed the formative assignment that I handed in before. I think, the key point was she suffered from time pressure (she needed to see 10 students a day/ 1 hour per student), and I had too many questions.
Probably she would like to finished her words firstly; I should raise my questions later.

If she wanted me to find my own solutions, i suppose she will point out that, cause she always did so.

This time, I perceived much more negative emotion from her.
____

Anyway, I would like to ignore these, but pay attention to review my writing.

And, you are right!!! Next time, I will prepare myself MUCH WELL before I go to see her, so that she will not have any excuse to refuese my questions.